I weep

by: Michelle bevins

what is this that is overtaking me again?

Where does this come from?

i know it's always there,

sometimes forgotten,

what brings it to the surface for me?

Facing the harsh realities,

that I spend 90 percent of my time denying.

I am ugly,

I am scarred,

I am angryand

I am hard.

I am loved yet,

never loved myself.

Even before there was reason,

good reason,

I still hated me.

Now in the face of all the concrete proof of my flaws,

I weep.It can only go downhill from here....

you keep trying

You Keep Trying

by michelle bevins

Day after dayTrying to make it go away

Anything you can do to make it better

Hanging on to the things that matter

Trying hard to keep it real

Trying hard not to feel

Keep it up, flash that smile

You can make it, one more mile

This is now and it's all you get

Make it count and win the bet

All you can do now is try

And keep inmind a reason why

Something to live for, something dear

Someone you'd die for, someone to care

There's not so much in this place

Takewhat you can get and fill the space

I'LL MISS YOU

I'll always remember that look in your eye
and all your nice words that had made me cry,
its funny really how you dont even care
the way that i felt when you touched my hair
you left me so soon,
i couldnt react to the truth that your love was only an act
now that youve gone,
i can just miss the sound of your voice
and the taste of your kiss.

IM SORRY

Im sorry i lied and im sorry i cried,
im sorry i sliced my wrists and died.
im sorry you loved me im sorry you cared,
im sorry i did something you'd never dared.
im sorry i loved you im sorry i left,
im sorry my life was taken like theft.
im sorry i did this to myself,
just pretend im still here tucked away on a shelf.
maybe you hated me wanted me gone,
maybe you wanted me dead all along.
eather way, im sorry that i tried again and again to commit suicide.