LOST

Lost
Can You see me down here?
Can you feel my pain?
Can you see me tears As i cry out your name
Lord, I feel so lost
I want to serve you but I'm afraid of the cost Will I stay true?
Oh, God I hurt! Do you know how I feel?
I'm so uncertain Is your love for real?
I am in endless agony
Like glass wedged in my heart God,
help me I'm falling apart


i didnt write this

let it rain

Let It Rain

Let it rain, let it flood,
let a crip kill a blood.
Let it rain, let it drip,
kill a slob cuz i clain crip.
Let it rain, let it thunda,
bury a slob six feet unda.
When i die, show no pitty,
send ma soul to gangsta city.
six flyin, 5 dyin
six popin, 5 dropin
cant stop, wont stop.
Bk all day,everyda y till ma bue casket drops.

MySelf and a friend of mine, wrote this poem. i know kinda fucked up right,

but what ever, he basicly told me things about crips an his life, and i made it into a poem, so here it is. dont like it go fuck ur self cuz i dont give a shit :P

Peace,

Missy!

unttitled

Cold hard blade, warm soft skin
Combine the two, the cleansing begins
Others don't get it, reasons they demand
For my bloody tears, so hard to understand
After I bleed, it is my learned belief
My self is calm, I have found relief
I am nothing like my outside shows
I am pain, that my inside knows
All about me is fake, I am forever acting
Body and soul pay the price
Scarring till I am exacting

untittled

It's really very beautiful
The feeling that you get
With every little slice
With every little slit
This touch of blood
This kiss of pain
Releases all the feeling
Driving me insane
With every cut
I become pure
So over and over I do it more and more
Don't think it's suicidal
For that is not the case
It's a way to release my anger and fear
Instead of showing it on my face
Please don't yell at me to stop
That only makes it worse
Don't talk to me about scars
I don't care I NEED THE HURT

I weep

by: Michelle bevins

what is this that is overtaking me again?

Where does this come from?

i know it's always there,

sometimes forgotten,

what brings it to the surface for me?

Facing the harsh realities,

that I spend 90 percent of my time denying.

I am ugly,

I am scarred,

I am angryand

I am hard.

I am loved yet,

never loved myself.

Even before there was reason,

good reason,

I still hated me.

Now in the face of all the concrete proof of my flaws,

I weep.It can only go downhill from here....

you keep trying

You Keep Trying

by michelle bevins

Day after dayTrying to make it go away

Anything you can do to make it better

Hanging on to the things that matter

Trying hard to keep it real

Trying hard not to feel

Keep it up, flash that smile

You can make it, one more mile

This is now and it's all you get

Make it count and win the bet

All you can do now is try

And keep inmind a reason why

Something to live for, something dear

Someone you'd die for, someone to care

There's not so much in this place

Takewhat you can get and fill the space

I'LL MISS YOU

I'll always remember that look in your eye
and all your nice words that had made me cry,
its funny really how you dont even care
the way that i felt when you touched my hair
you left me so soon,
i couldnt react to the truth that your love was only an act
now that youve gone,
i can just miss the sound of your voice
and the taste of your kiss.

IM SORRY

Im sorry i lied and im sorry i cried,
im sorry i sliced my wrists and died.
im sorry you loved me im sorry you cared,
im sorry i did something you'd never dared.
im sorry i loved you im sorry i left,
im sorry my life was taken like theft.
im sorry i did this to myself,
just pretend im still here tucked away on a shelf.
maybe you hated me wanted me gone,
maybe you wanted me dead all along.
eather way, im sorry that i tried again and again to commit suicide.

The cutters lullaby
Go to sleep and close your eyes,
And dream of broken butter flies
That tore their wings against a thorn.
You know the pain that they have endured
silver metalshine so bright
scarlet blood
that feels so right.
dream of that blood trickling down,
and wake up just before you drown.
the moonlight shining off your tears
as you bleed out your worst fears.
so tonight when you start to cry
whisper the cutters lullaby:
hushabye baby,
your almost dead
you don't have a pulseand
your pillow is red.
your family hates you
your friends let you bleed
sleep tight with a knife,
cause its all that you need.
Rockabye baby,
Broken and scarred,
You didn't know life would be this hard.
Time to end the pain you hid so well
And down will come baby,
Straight back to hell...

live forever

Live forever
Sharp fangs, shining in the moonlight,
for the living creatures, causing a fright...
Vampires of the mist are in blood lust,
to drink fluid of life, they must...
Not for them your pity and tears shed,
through the death continue their life undead...
Things for yourself just easy to make,
give your blood, let them your life take...
Let go of your life, they drink away your pain,
then you are not lost, alone, in this vain...
Your soul, your life, for them just to give,
join them, with them in death forever you live...